Thoughts on Writing
April 26, 2026
I made this blog more than 6 months ago, and have since published 0 posts. I spent a few hours designing the home page, worrying about the font, layout, images etc, and so I was surely worried about my first post fitting with what I found to be a beautiful.
Obviously, a beautiful, useful, informative and smart blog would be great, but that's not the counterfactual to a less rigorous bar for posting - 6 months of inactivity is. An idea which helped my adoption of running and working out is that the best schedule is the one you keep. You could go out and run until you puke, then run some more, and feel really good about yourself, but be in lots of pain, and have hated the experience, and never really do it again until you beat yourself up about it, and go out and do the same thing a few months later, or you can lightly jog, push yourself a little bit, get a bit out of breath, have a roughly positive experience, and be ready to do it again in 2 days.
It's easy to idolize the tortured, stoic mindset which is prevelant in media, but in my experience, it's much closer to the first path of miserable and unsustainable illusions of progress and work ethics. This isn't to say that some people don't have that drive for certain things - I think that they do exist, but it's not something you can will to existence, and if you're sitting, strategizing how to progress in some area, you'll be better off defering to the second path.
What this means for me and my writing is that I should be open to putting out ideas that aren't perfect, and maybe aren't even useful (or correct?). The stated goal is to understand myself and my own goals more, and a high-browed but sedentary writing schedule doesn't do that.
Cato is quoted as saying "I begin to speak only when I'm sure what I'll say isn't better left unsaid." It's easy to fall in to a paralysis around within this sort of mindset: you can never be truly sure of the unknown, and so you should never act, right? But of course, that is a miserable failure of a life. Ask me how I know.
So, here is my first post, and with it, another which details my ~ life's work so far, digging myself out of a hole.